Sister Act

Situations with men/boys have been some of the most difficult parts of being here.
I mean in the States it was a very rare occasion that a guy showed interest in me. I had a few boyfriends but I never was really making guys look twice. So coming here where many different guys have shown interest has been more difficult.
And I feel a bit of anger because I do not know their intentions. Because my first assumption is usually negative. I mean I didn't come here to find anyone to begin with and I am not interested in anyone and do not plan on getting involved without knowing that God is okay with it. But I cannot make all my thoughts go away. I mean I just struggle with sincerity of heart when it comes to men and what their intentions are. I am so terrified of falling into deception that I have placed walls up that basically cuts short anyone's chance with me. And that is wrong I know but it is a protective instinct.
I don't know what God wants me to learn from all this. I mean I have ideas.
But God thinks much bigger than I do. And has much bigger plans for me than I do for myself.
I know God will help me sort all of this out.
Valentine's Day was good.
Church, lunch, the beach, helping at the restaurant and then playing soccer with the kids before getting on the internet and going to bed. It wasn't really like Valentine's Day. Just another Sunday off. This week some of the kids left for camp for the week. And I think Saturday I will be in Trujillo and Sunday in Chiclayo. So lots of traveling. It will be good.
I am excited about Papa John's and about seeing Keyla.
Please just pray that God will show me where He wants me in this ministry.
I need direction and clarification.
James 1:27