Meaningful Simplicity

Sometimes I feel like I won't ever shake certain things. But then I am reminded that Christ is bigger than anything and everything that exists in this world and it puts a smile on my face =]
Why is it that we are so foolish? So self-consumed? That we miss out on God's plan, His purpose, His calling. Why do we get so mixed up in the ways of the world that we deny Christ rather than denying ourselves? Why do we think we know what's best? That we know it all?
Why do we think that we can take care of ourselves and make all the right decisions without Christ in the picture? Why do we get so confused about what we believe and who we serve?
Why is it that we ask God to be our all, our number one, and then when something compromising comes around, we change our minds and give into the world rather than holding our ground like Jesus did when He walked on this earth?
What seems to be the problem?
Why do we let our eyes stray from the One who Created us? The one who carefully knit us into the very being that we are today? Why do we let our eyes stray from the One who forgave us? The one who gave His grace so willingly, time after time, and who sees us as whiter than snow? Why do we let our eyes stray from our Jesus who died a brutal death so that we could have a chance to live. He knew some would not choose Him and yet He still died for everyone.
He loved us that much and yet we think we have the right to please ourselves rather than serve Him?!?!
Jesus lived to serve God. We should live to serve Jesus. In everything.
It's not an easy path to walk down, but it is totally worth it.
Today wasn't much of an eventful day for me. But I watched as I allowed myself to respond selfishly in small tendencies. I was shocked at myself for how easy it was to let others do things for myself when I could easily take care of them if I would just get up off my behind.
But I am glad that I saw that through my eyes, experienced that because it reminded me of how imperfect I really am and how important it really is for me to keep my eyes on Christ.
When I allow myself to get away from Him, I fall so quickly. And that is because I am nothing without Christ. My reliance must be completely on Him. He is my strength.
In my weakness He is made perfect. I love that. Love love love it. He is so good to me.
"Servanthood is revealed in simple, everyday events. But it's complex because servanthood is culturally defined--that is, serving must be sensitive to the cultural landscape while remaining true to the Scripture. That is both the challenge and burden of servanthood."
Today we worked some on laundry, I finally have clothes to wear. We returned the mattresses to the children and got them some of their sheets back. yay! And we had missionary night.
Lots of delicious food today, which was such a blessing! It felt good to eat real yummy things! And we talked more of me returning more long term to be a house mother and it was exciting and scary all at once. And I was hit with all the responsibilities that are waiting for me to return and to face when I go back for school. It was all a bit overwhelming but the peace of God that surpasses all understanding swept all over me because I truly know that God will call me, I will follow and He will provide. So I am not going to concern myself with the matters. I will just do what I believe I can do to take care of it when I return and I will trust that God will take care of the rest. I serve a good God =]
I watched some Gilmore Girls and now I am off to bed, to start a new wonderful day in the Lord tomorrow! And as my dearest Emily Delivered says...

"The Lord has transformed my life. He has taken my ashes and turned them into gold. He has taken my dirt and filth and turned it into diamonds. He has taken this peasant girl and adopted her into His family. I am a daughter of the King of kings."
For that, I am thankful and truly blessed =]